Angel and Devil.....

so it was Halloween.2010.. 

ninie and I decided to come in pair.
it was a long journey to prepare for our splendid attire...
going up n down the town to find the convincing enough outfit. But, it worth for what we did, at least we get a free entrance to MATRIX.. means our costume is convincing enuf.. to scare the soul awaY... hahaha

Credit goes to dearly Mollen... for all the effort given to do this angelic costume.. n bear up with my unsatisfied remarks on the baju initially..

However, it turn out well....

my DEVIL is super Hot wei.....


present to u... ANGEL N DEVIL....

wake me up.. when september end....

Its been so long before i managed to finish my summer holiday stories..
well.. semester had started two months ago.. time speed .... without u even realizing it.

so many thing in my mind. my new semester resolution....which i planned as if like i'm going to build the entire Rome...so far not much have been accomplish beside slacking it gradually...
Lord, Please HELP ur helpless child here...

waking up... just another day... time speed...
now its November.... i took this pictures after few days returning from malaysia....

my russian tour.....2010

so as i had said.. so many plan ... dearly plan of vacation....
so i m going to tell a bit.. i hope not so much .. the places that i visited in russia
After about 5 years staying here.. in this ex Soviet country...
only now, i have the chance to visit those places....they call it SPLENDID... RUSSIA...


we left Kursk, by train after dust, but its ... so there u go.. a mix feeling in me...
my greatest worry is... oh my, i m travelling with my 20kg luggage, with extra laptop, bag.. documents...........
how great!!! so finally reach moscow, thanks to few generous friend that stay in Moscow, who allowed us to leave our stuff in their hostel.... the long travel up n down to and fro metro station...the worries of getting lose in the big crowd.... our stop was in Part  Kultury station.. FYI, this is one of the station involve in MOSCOW METRO BOMBING 2010... scarry!!!

But it all went well, except on our stop to the Sheremetyevo airport, we were confused which terminal should we go down.. since it was like a to z terminal... but a kind russian lady directed us, ... spaciba ...
 thax to Scarlett, we managed to get a cheap so called air-asia airline, to travel to st. peterburg... heheheheh
compare to travel long way 12 hours by bus from moscow to SPB, or a day from Kursk to SPB...


sO we finally reach SPB(st. peterburg) AKA.. PITER!!!too much for an intro.. just look true the photos.. that i uploaded k....

 Scarlet Sailing Festival...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

oh yeah!! i m back for another 2 months

hello again..
so its the end of june... exam down.....

Thank God for the great great favor during my exam...
Cant do it better without Him..
Dei Gracia...

So now, my holiday is about to start.... with all the plan ahead of me...
is there any better, beside asking DEI... since i have no one else to ask only Him...

LET THE HOLIDAY BEGIN!!!!

my little friend.. vennessa!!!

i m stress!!! i don't even know why? its not like the exam is tomorrow. I still have another 4 or 5 days to prepare.. but frankly speaking this time exam really make me nuts...

Trying to study but.. i just going trough with it... so what I do.. I will just take a break.. till i have the mood just hope that I have enough time...

this is a year before.. 2008..

Well, Little girl name Venessa.. she is my dearly cousin..so cute.. looking at her.. really a remedy..

No worries.. The smile in her face, the cheer.. JUST SIMPLY put a chuckle back in my heart..
Maybe I'm too stress that trough her smile it indirectly release the endorphine hormone... that at least can help me to compensate this stress level

I do miss this little girl.. try to make friend with her but.. she is so attached with Abang J... even get jeolous when Jerry was busy doing his stuff...
So, what I did was trying to attract her attention but still not success until I get her soap bubble refill.. that how i managed to get into her attention.. trying to persuade me.. to get the bubble refill middle of the night.Since it is late so i told her tomorrow...
so the next morning, early in the morning after waking up.. the first thing was she said to me :

 KAKAK,.... BUBBLE FOR VENESSA........

 so cute... so adorable.... so brought this little girl to the kitchen n refill it with the dish wash... she was happy and start blowing the bubble... Try to show me even , the bubbles... 

So that is the story about this little girl, every year if I go back .. I need to buy her heart over n over again... I recall previous year. Hang out with her almost all the time, just carry her all around babysit her... till the time i wanted to go back... she didn't want to let go...was crying... KIDDOS...

this recent year, she was fast asleep.. too much of bubble... when I leave... 

this is the bubble look.... 2009

Oh.. i miss that little girl.. vennessa.. 

every year I come back,  she grow taller and thinner.. ..

since only once a year i only meet her, i always have to rebuild the friendship with this little fellow...

Here I come again.. my dearly ven ven... Kakak Miguel MISS U... see what next after bubble... 

siapa suka makan ice batu...

PAGOPHAGIA

it is a compulsive consumption of ice or iced drink. 

related with IDA( iron deficiency aneamia) , it is said chewing ice may give a good ease 

toward the iron deficient.

It is also somehow ease the glossitis pain such in PVS(Plummer Vinson Syndrome).

may compensate the

pay attention... OA

 do u see what i c...

 

on the pointed arrow, what is seen is osteophyte

what is osteophye? it is a bone projection which appear in along together with the joint..so its a bad thing lah..

where it cause a deformity. as seen in the x-ray.

  see this is due to present of osteophyte in the last segment of the finger.. 

medically it is known as Distal Inter Phalanges.  .. DIP..

if the deformity of finger present at this part it is known as : HEBEDEN'S NODES

if it the deformity occur at the base of the finger. Which is also known as Proximal Inter Phalanger aka PIP.

as seen in the picture. this is called : Bouchard's Nodes.

happy buffday to myself....13 MAY

Well... what a funny thing to be born at the date.. 13th... some said its an unlucky number... hmmm, no no no.. MIGUELINDA is one LUCKY creature... still alive for the last 23 years..
many history relate to this very date.. one of it i recalled was:

• Peristiwa berdarah.. 13 Mei 1969.. all about the rascism issues. after 40 years , still same matter that could not reach it end.
• 13 may 1981, the attempt of assassination of John Paul II, by a Turkish gunman.. which his attempt was a failure.
• 13 may 1917, first appearance of OUR LADY OF FATIMA in Portugal, Fatima...

i wouldn't really bother about 13 may .. if not one cute little toddler was born on 13 may 1986...

                                                        guess who if not .. me... :P


well, yeah MIGGY WAS BORN!!! heheheh anyhow, i have this one habit... i just like to remind my close friends that my buffday is coming... i even do a countdown for them... dont said i m bad.. just simply i do that to my buddies....

 so how was this year celebration.. fb started to flood with birthday wishes.. the ealiest was on the 11 of may.. wow...and it kept coming n coming.. i just love it....said that i m vain.. yeah! i m..

                      first wish was from ah ayn.. my ex classmate in kkhs... i know her, she is the pengawas. a cousin of jen chua.. above it was.. from my dearly antie.. BIDUT, one of my fav aunt.. and on top was from danny chin another cute cinabeng ...oso x classmate.... 

so there goes, birthday wishes flooding my wall.. i m just so loving it.. believe it or not.. i did check it every minute... hehehhehe

 that was.. in fb....

the sokol sauna party.... 

next... few good friends gave me a treat to sauna...in sokol... its a fitness club...  it was fun... with the cake, food, n the pool... i just love it...

first birthday cake..see my M initial.. yummy chocolate cake.. thx to ninie, sam, kiran, rveen, gurl n mollen....

eating out.. pot luck style

after the 2 hour session of indoor picnic.. we look fresher than ever!!!

                                                                   

before the clock strike 12am , 13 may 2010... another celebration... from my beloved housemate...

thx to Vanni and Swit... tengah malam ada feast.....

chocolate ice-cream cake.. done by swit.. indeed she is sweet... 

then following day.. AHWENG N LEELING .. belanja me   makan.. in STEAK HOUSE.. u know i just realize the russian spell it like this @ STIK HAUSE @. 

then the weekend.. steam boat by my groupmates..................

what else.. all i can say is this... THANK U...

PS. THIS IS MY 24YEARS OLD LOOK.....

Dear Lord, thank u for being with me.. for the last 23 years of journey.... 

a new year had just begun.. be with me... close.. if i ever let go... draw me back closer to YoU ... like the prodigal son.. help me in becoming a better man.. righteous n wise.. so much that u gave me.. more than  i can deserved... All i can said is Thank u.. Bless my love ones.. one thing i ask for those that never fail to remind that i m a year older.. keep them in Ur grace... AMEN...

mac, april n may!!! a preview....

 Women's Day.. 8 Mac 2010...

Cheers ! to all the beau of Group 11...Happy W day. sam,rina, nat , oj n chepa...

annual gathering.... the food in mashe was good but at the same time.. burn ur money too... 

 

31st march... my birthday mama....

This is my mom... yeah.. she ROCK!!

during her 48th birthday... cake n flower that i ordered specially for her.

not cheese cake lah.. she love cheese cake, very very much.. wait lah when i come back..

Anyhow, not much deed that i can offer compared to what she did  for me.

All i wish for her, is a good health , wiser in year to come... being blessed n be a blessing to others..

AMEN...

 VOLAKNO... hospital no.4... the story of AGELEVA N SUPER MARIO

This is my dearly beloved groupmates... consist of 8 people... coming from different state of malaysia... we were having our extreme medicine in valakno.

Valakno is known as hospital No. 4. It is the furthers hospital where u have to wake up early in the morning like 2 hours before class. And get ready in the bustop an hour ealier. If u are late, u will just miss the bus that heading there. Well, it was a long long cycles we had in Valakno, from gyneocology.. believe it or not we got . Mdm. Ageleva... somehow she is a good teacher.. who gave us a fresh uterus that had just removed from a woman aged 46 years old with diagnose. Benign Uterine Myoma.
 After her, with have mr.5000, well his name is call FeitHAIsan... I don't really recall his name so well beside knowing him as Mario and 5000. He had been our Traumato teacher since last semester.. another 1 week with him was for the extreme medicine cycle... total WE  have been going up n down to valakno almost 1 month.

 Finally we end our cycles well in valakno...

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my GOD is RISEN.. sing ALLELUYAH!!!

Easter Sunday 2010.

 Sing Halleluyah, My God is risen from the death.

It was a meaningful mass for me, not to say that i had observe the lent season well.But all i could be proud of the good deeds i did , all back to God.. at the end of the day.. its all by HIS GRACE... i M capable...

Christ is DEAD, Christ is RISEN.... Christ will come again!!! 

 so they call it... summer.........

Its summer... 1st May 2010.... its oso the BBQ season for all the kurskian.... my beloved moderately kiasu groupmates will be the first to plan...

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 this is what u call 1 MALAYSIA...colourful, cheerful .. free spirit..hand in hand...

     AYAM SOTONG... Q... ADA!!! BAH. food unites the malaysian.....

9th may 2010, russian victory day...

65th anniversary 1945-2010...

                           

 

The st.George VICTORY DAY ribbon.. that i finally managed to grab.... heheheh

Ninie n i... we planned to go to gym actually on that very day.. instead we ended up.. jalan2 along the lenina street... she with her sunflower smiley ballon.. me with my yellow BIG BOW...

#However it was one great day!!!

i myself find it cute!! although the tummy was big hehe.. 

ni lah kerja... selalu ponteng aerobic tapi makan never ponteng...

what a coincidence to meet chepa n her gfs....

everyone looking best !!!

 at the end of the day.. i pampered myself with roasted chicken  plus roasted potato.. salad got it from eropah.. my shop... mohito  kliskoe beer n green tea... while watching some good movies... 

I JUST LOVE MY LIFE!!!

the so call roasted lemon chicken rice.. DEI GRACIA

hello bloggie.. it was long long tym since i last came ..
anyhow, what have been going on..

i have one small testimony to write... about the big GUY from above..
Frankly speaking, been very very far, still wonder when was the last time i said or though that i was close with Him.

 But this time, we were planning to cook for 125 people.. OMG...
thx to weng, maybe i challenged her to get as much as 100 orders... indeed she did.. applause to her.. n her fellow friend..
However my mind still worry.. so much of worries how am i going to reach the expectation of 125 people..
there was a whisper in.. telling .. trust in God, everything is possible.. but this time ... it couldn't be more vivid as I'm so call far away from God...
i wrote a long prayer...
Dear LORD... help us to prepare an awesome meal for 120 people... And let them satisfied more than we ever imagine, quality and quantity wise are excellent... bla... bla .. AMEN...
So what happen that day,  i promised to deliver the food at around 12 to 1pm... but... still have 3 pack of rice not cook yet n ayam .. belum habis panggang.... haish .... was a bit in moody colour... RED SEA.. 2nd day...
We start deliver at 3pm... how late was that..i even throw my tantrum to my superpowerpuff  cooking team... sorry dearest.. teamate.. not a right timing.. PMS.
But at the end of the day.. we got so many feed back telling that the meal was really delicious.. i myself also could not believe it.. over the week, some friends kept asking what was the recipe.. and believe it or not after a week there are people still giving compliment..
indeed, it was really more than i could ever imagine...

therefore, a secret i wanna share.. it wasn't my great cooking skill... i got all the recipe from the internet. but one thing i believe was.. it was God GRACE.. i'm n we are capable of producing an awesome meal on that very day...

it somehow strike me... a lot... i was really really far away from GOD... being disobedient was the nature... but indeed He still HELP ... to this extend.. i m ever thankful..
# DEI GRACIA

#so there was a song once sung, its easier to know
Him as a Saviour than God....

try n ponder... n its very true.






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some said AMOR... is a CANCER... this will b the title becoz i m having onco cycle now!!!

when u r in love.. everything look good,
they said, u look lovely. U know y? becoz the cheer of  love is in U.
And ur heart is so light that u just felt as if u r floating like the neon gas in the air...
That is LOVE.. Love make u young, love fill u JOY. n everything around u make u wanna smile n laugh.. becoz u r happy as ever...
but there be a misery of it... at one point...when the misery STRIKE, u will just find it hard to smile anymore.
u eyes becoming a pond of tears. U may felt that u r abandon... leave all alone in the eerie street.
anyone may come and take ur life away.. the one thing that u worried of is will anybody realize that I'M missing...not ur life that bother u much... but one thing.. will that special one still CARE. that is the main question?

EUROS LOVE. its one heck of complex structure... of the heart mind n soul..
if DNA sequence can be explore well by man. It takes almost the whole centuries to understand it..
but its complexity cannot be compare to what does HEART MATTER...
give me the best philosopher, still he cannot explain the matter of the heart...

anyhow? is there any an ever after story?  when we were young our mind is imbibed with all delusional stories of CINDERELLA, SNOW WHITE... and so they lived happily ever after...
seem nice.. its bad to spoil a kiddos tale... but... exception EVER AFTER, only comes when u work for it..
sometym, ever after may need more than first love, sometym ever after will come wid a lot of trial n tribulation.. wid sorrow...
but if we can smile and appreciate what we have.... even a blink, THAT IS EVER AFTER....

appreciate what u have, dont look back or reach ahead.
often we take time to cry for the past, n we miss out the present..
n sometym, we spend so much of planning b4 we appreciate the NOW....
every brokenness teach us to grow.
every pain, there is a reason. n every fear there is a small chance of courage.
all is needed is to go on.. to cheerish every moment u have in life ..
this is LIFE, they said live life to the fullest...
but i said.. i want to hav the JOY of living...to experience every fresh moment...
becoz, u dont know how long tym u hav for all these.. so enjoy!!

PS:.. this is for some1, that bring smile to my face....u know who u r..
       thx.. its not easy to find some1 that will said to u.
      .I DONT WANT U to MAKE URSELF AN  IDIOT, WHEN U FALL DEEP, n CANNOT COME   
       OUT... i thank GOD for you...

                                        
       XXX.... mig

Hold my Hand.. JESUS..

My journey of Love ... wasn't easy..
I stumble and get slower DURING these journey.
Ample temptation. I'm weak, my flesh welcome those temptation like a hungry monster.
And these make me stop in search of You.

But one thing, He didn't want me to quit.
That is why, whole my heart want to tell you...
DEI GRACIA
When You send simple minded person to show me How You long for me... in this journey..
All I can say after my realization is that,
You wasn't leaving me and you never will but YOU are always there.

WAITING TO HOLD MY HAND AND CONTINUE THE JOURNEY OF LOVE.

my soul pleading everyday....

JESUS HOLD MY HAND
JESUS HEAL MY HEART
JESUS SAVE MY SOUL
COME AND STAY IN ME

AMEN...

Journey of Love

I have one big project here...
4O DAYS... it start today..
its not simple... i will update it daily..
Its a journey to return home with my Lover...
WHO: A lover n the beloved..
tools: self surrender,
aim: return home to the father...

prayer: Heavenly Father, as today is the beginning of ur son passion.
           Help me, as my spirit yielding you loud but my flesh is weak.
           Grant me within this 40days of lent, to really draw my attention back to ur DIVINITY...
           Help me NOT to get dull  searching Your face,
           Avoid me from the opening sea of pleasure.
           Let ur HOLY SPIRIT.... breath in me.. as i walk, talk, act be a radiant to others around me..
           Jesus, the lover of my journey. stay close as closer than ever... as close as a child in her mother worn
           Mother MARY, pray for me ... as i know ur prayer are powerful to help me trough this journey.
           till then,,,
          for Christ Name Sake, i PRAY..
         AMEN....

O Jesus Christ, my Lord, with what great love you traveled the painful road which led to your death -- and how often have I abandoned you. But now I love you with my whole soul, and because I love you, I am sincerely sorry for having offended you. My Jesus, pardon me, and permit me to accompany you on this journey. You died for love of me, and it is my wish, O my dearest Redeemer, to be willing to die for love of you. O my beloved Jesus, in your love I wish to live, and in your love I wish to die. Amen. +

emotion war.....

when u love somebody...
its hard to not to love them,
its hard to deny them.
its hard not think of them.
its hard to forget them.
ITS HARD..
even if u try to fill the empty space with someone new, its still return back to the person u love...

Oh God... I wish i didnt learn to love... becoz now it leave me broken...

I so LOVE this particular person that i cannot forget him.. which i try so hard to....
its a contradiction of mind....

Damn it.... Y have u come n ravel my mind...
i so HATE u.... but at the same time..  i sink deeper into u...

xxx
mig

2000-2009..

hello dear mr. BLOG..
its been a while since the last blog i posted about the Birth of Christ.
somehow , i just paid my internet at the mid month of jan without compensating my half month that i lose..
it was due to my ENT(ear, nose, throat) exam that i decided to spare a two weeks without the net.
but somehow i do online via mobile. and have a peep on my FB account with the generous heart of my hommie.. ms. V....

anyway.. its a long awaiting new year wish..
 Happy New Year 2010...
i recalled it was 2000. so much of speculation of Y2K bug... so many things turn up.
within this 10 years, many thing had changed as well..
either for better or worse.. I admit it. I lose some beloved.. But there is so much tragic happen within this decade. 9/11, Tsunami, mr.Barrack O, Dr. M giving up his ruling, JP 2 died, what else....the Mardoff's Scandal, MJ's RIP, economy crisis.... some more... n more...
within this 10 years, so much of idealogy has come to its term.

        SPOT ME.... IF U CAN!!!!
i still recall it was in form 2, in 2000, fighting to fit in with my punk hair style. n trying so hard to be the corporal for PBSM...whatever u call it. having a rush crush on this one cute guy... who so gud enuf offer up his KIT KAT to me during our journey to Tenom.
learning swimming. going for swimming course wid my buddy, SYL.. having to realized that it was a kiddos swimming session age 4 to 8 years old n we are the two big kakak... in that children pool..
passing my PMR, SPM... n was the first guinea pig batch.. undergo this . they said its a way to instill nationalism, unity , multi-racial n bla bla bla.. yah rite.. its rude if i said @KISS MY ASS@ it never reach that goal .. its only a waste of money... it cost approximately rm8K for one participant... anyhow, there is where i learn that BIDAYUH guys r hot.. hahahaha.. i got a crush on one sweet, not said holy but he have it all...mr.E.. but only for 3 months.. somehow the NS camp, does bring me a realization.. there is no better place like home.. i though that i wont be homesick... but i was.. missing my mom's early morning lecture, her terjun style cooking, missing fighting wid MUTANT my bro etc... missing every thing at home that i never realize to appreciate it greatly.
in 2004, i got a matriculation entrance, time passes so fast n soon. u go lectures, staying in hostel.. Labuan is heaven for chocolate n liquer lover... save the liquer part.. i indulge so much over the chocolates. It turning me to a FAT mig for just 3 months... trust me 8 kg.. every time holiday , i just can finish giant size peanut Cadbury  n having the sofa as my throne of SLOTH... to my realization, i have triple chin growing ... have a hot flame over this one guy again.. damn it.. i wish i wasnt have feeling...
finish matrics.. and never come to my mind that i will ever step out to study in OVERSEA...
m not a supersmart student.. i lose my hope to be a Doc, after a dissapointment on my 1st sem pointer that never qualify me for a place in any of the medical school.. I fill up for chemical engineering course n I got it.
somehow, i was send to KURSK.. this humble place to pursue my dream..
still i m questioning my own reverie, is this possible. Huh? I need a slap to let me fill the pain that actually i becoming a doctor... not in malaysia.. but in russia.. to my amazement , it was simply an answer prayer.. from both my mom n dad... n from me in the midst of lossing hope... i wrote a simple letter to God... OF COZ I HAVE NO WAY TO MAIL it... its just a letter of complain telling Him that how i wish.. if there is a hope...
n there He ANSWER... my prayer.. till to these day.. m not a holy but all i can say is @ DEI GRACIE@
so that how my beginning of KURSK chapter... its a long story..
first year.. 2005/06. everything is new..the term autumn, winter spring summer... come to my familiarity...
big money in the hand... come to know rubble, dong, usd, euro...
having to fight with my inferiority complex and ego, struggling n challengin, trying hard to strive for 5 and 4..
knowing the meaning of @daily control@.. still studying the same thing bio, chem, physic.. except the new medical subject anatomy and latin...
year later, proceed to 2nd year... physiology, biochem , microb ...
its an intresting subject... still daily control have to go true... ..
2nd year was a year that i learn to human body is one heck of complex...
3rd year... this is one big year.. so much to study, so much to cramp...
so much of conflicts, so much of rage and anger...so much of pride n unresolve stuffs..
much to my perception, i dont blame the surrounding... i blame me but the anger n preassure i show it sharply n fail to realize that it hurt some1... i m sorry to this particular person, S... all i wanted her to know is I K, and I envied, i m merely human.. i have felling except that so much i tried to hide n act as if its Ok..it never come out a word of SORRY from each of us.. pride is holding us hard...but for now, it is fine between us... somehow i consider its as a maturation of relationship between her n i... N for friends... that was there to hold on, who lend me their shoulder in time of crisis... a big thanks for them... i was so fragile that moment, having the cracking line .... but i didnt break .. becoz i have friends.. that is there to hold on.. Thx.. dear friend that lend me their shoulder to tears... N thx to Dei.. FOR having me to trough this gravel path...
4th year.2008/09. here i cum, a transition of my study life, i move to apartment, i study lazier, enlarge my social encounter, i go aerobic, i m back to club... n i go to the hospital almost every day....
something are still the same... the good remain good.. but there are good thing turning bad... i lose a portion of my holiness... i m no more holy.. but what is in me.. is a spiritual fighting itself...becoz there are some quarter of my life where i m giving up n stop praying ... it was a struggle.. so hard... the world shout louder than the gentle sound of God...going to church confessing the same sin ... almost every week... to the end.. i skip masses...God was only useful to me during EXAM....
indeed... i bet someone was praying harder for me... whoever is that person i said thax.. my spiritual fight is a maturation of fight i suppose... it actually teaching me.. what to perceived according the the mind of Dei.
It is a big step to take.. sometime u cannot be intermediate ... i always in a crossroad of everything .. weighing good and bad... are equal the indulgence was long but deep in me was a greater longing for Dei... i TRUDGE from bad to good.... and via versa...
the good thing of being an intermediate .. standing in the crossroad.. is that u are acceptable in every way... either its of liberal or conservative... both side know u well. but the bad thing is that,... at the end of the day u lose ur goal... when everyone is in the forward direction... u still remain standing in that crossroad... n u will never grow...and to my mind, u will absolutely have a nil result.. becoz no goal, no effort no achievement....

i tired n mlas ready...
to be continue lah... someday.. i have tonne of time during this oliday....